LOVE STORY

When i look at this photo, i remember about something. Something that first i know. Something about you, my previous. 3-4 years ago, we have a date. You tell me that you love me, and you promise that you will always love me. My life is full of happiness after we do it. I think that you are the best of all. I love you with all my heart and i just wanna to spend my life with you on that time. But the problem is coming. I think that you have a affair with her, my best friend. I'm jealous. I think that she's steal you from me, and you become to love her not me. I'm sad and angry after i thinking about it. nd then we are brokenhearted. I'm not yours again and so are you.
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And now, i found him. He gives me the happiness like you give to me. Everytime he smile, i can't stop to melting. Everytime i look at him, i can't go away from him. Everytime he speak, he touch me and i become to be stronger than years ago.Oh, how lucky i am. I can meet him and know what's amazing everytime i remember him and begin to melting again............... oh, God, but how unlucky i am because he still not just a friend not more. although i just wanna catch his heart and become to his girlfriend, i still can't do it.............. TToTT
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_._._._._, thanks and forgive me for everything and _._._._, i will not let you go, i will try to touch you, catch you and become to your special girl............
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KING BEE!!!!!! REMEMBER, YOU WILL BE MINE,,,,, ^^

Because Of You ^^ (for SunShine)

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

KAMSO??? Oh, No?!?

Baru ajj q buka facebook, qu coba leat2 grup, dan astaghfirullah, agku leat ada grup yg mengatasnamakan dirinya sbg anti Mr.Oky Sudarto, kepala sekolah SMP 1 Kudus dan SMP 2 Kudus....... Pendiri maupun anggota sptnya gag terima ada kepsek yg mengepalai dua sekolah favorit d kudus sekaligus..... emnx c awalna agku sepaham krn agku pikir begitu serakahnya jika jd kepsek di dua cqulaa fav sekaligus, TAPVI stlah agku nalar, kayaknya sah2 ajj deh Mr.Oky nglakuin it, Toh, it juga perintah, bkn kemauan sendiri.... Tp balik lg soal moral dan daya pikir masing2, jk negative thinking tentu kamu sepaham dgn pendiri grup KAMSO itu, tp jk anda positive thinking, mgkn qm sepaham sama agku.... Lagian ni y, qu denger, syarat kepsek tu sekarang kalo taraf RSBI, musti Strata 2.... Lah kan kepsek lama kita Mr. Suyono baru Strata 1 mzqipun pny 2 gelar, mgkin cepat atau lambat, pemrintah akan bertindak jugag, akan ada pihak lain yg mengepalai sekolah kita tercinta, SMP 2 Kudus.... Jika it kejadiannya semoga kita makin maju, makin berwawasan, dan fasilitas pun makin ngedukung.... Kalo pun gag pun gpp, coz saya liat, Mr. Oky orang yg baik dan berwibawa. Maksud beliau berbagi cerita ttg kunjungannya ke singapore, malaysia atau brunei dlm pikiran saya adl sbg motivasi bwt kita utk lebih giat belajar, berdo'a dan berikhtiar, insya ALLOH, kita bisa menyamai beliau, bahkan melebihinya, AMIN ALLAHUMMA AMIEN... Sekali lagi berusahalah menyayangi semua orang jangan ada rasa benci sekecil apapun, jk kita terpaksa tidak menyukai seseorang, lakukan dgn biasa ajj, simpan dlm hati, tak usah menjelek2kannya, mgkin malah nanti jk kita kesusahan, orang yg kita bencilah yg ngebantuin kita.... siapa yg tau, Wallahu A'lam mah kalio soal itu..... keep study hard, smile and friendly to all friend,,,, ^^

Salahkah agku bila qu terus mencintainya??

Y Rabb, kini agku duduk bersimpuh k hdpn-MU
Qu ingin panjatkan do'a ttg'a
Tttg orang yg begitu qu sayangi
Yg begitu agku cintai
Sampai2 dy mampu hadir selalu
Dlm setiap mimpi dan fikiranku
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Y Rabb, salahkah aku terus mencintainya
Krn sepertinya dy tx mrzakn hal yg sama
Hal yg sll qu impikan
Hal yg sll qu syukuri jk bgtu ada'a
Qu kn setia bila dy bersanding dgnqu
Selamanya sampai nafas terakhirku
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Y Rabb, Sekali lagi aku dihadapkan pada kebingungan
Kebingungan akan hadirnya cinta sejati
Mungkinkah itu ada padanya
Atau ada pada orang lain d luar sana
Entahlah Y Rabb, qu pasrah pada-MU
Yg jelas jika aku boleh memilih
Qu hny menginginkannya
Hanya dia, takkan ada yg lebih baik drnya
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Jika nantinya qu dengan yang lain
Percayalah Y Rabb, hati ini kn terus merintih
Menahan kekecewaan yg ada karena dia tak ada
Tpvi jk memang itu yg terbaeg
Jk mmmg ada yg lain yg lebih pantas
Mungkin qu harus merelakannya y Rabb
Walau terasa berat d hati ini
Walau terasa perih dan menusukku
Qu kan coba bertahan
Qu kan coba menatap ke depan
Mencoba terus hidup, belajar dan berjuang
Tanpa bayang-bayangnya lagi
Tanpa kenangan ttg'a lg
Semoga jk mmg option kedua ini terjadi
Dia kan menghilang dr hati, fikiran dan mimpiku
Tanpa sisa, Tnp bekas....

Hari RaYa idUL adHa

muLai mLem smp pGi2 c X qu dgr alunan gema takbir d mna2..... Jiwa dan Hati ni pun sejuk....... Tx trza dlm tahun 2009 ni trdpt 2 hr Raya Idul Adha......... Pagi2 c X qu mempersiapkn dRi, lalu brgkt ke cqulaah utk melaksanakan shalat idUL adHa bersama guRu n tmeNtd2qu........ Syukurlah, qu tx trLmbt. Qu mci s4 mncri t4 yg nyaman n b'kumpuL b'sm tmNd2qu^^.........
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b'seLang bbrp menit saat shaf penuh, kami mLy mLksananakn saLat ied diimami Pak Kamal, guru PAI sekaligus IPS........ Stlh sLesai kami mndgrkan khotbah Pak Sulichan, guru PAI lalu kami pun meLaksanakan penyembelihan kUrbaN........ Sebagian puLang dan sebagian lagi ttp d cqulaah tuk menyaksikan penyembelihan......... *pembanataian dan pemottongan* hikzz.... daya adrenalinqu t'pacu, qu bergabug dgn anak2 laen tuk meleatd penyembelihan hewan qurban......... da 2 t4 penyembelihan, yg p1 da di dpn gedung RSBI, yg ke-2 d dpn musholla........ P1 qu mampir d depan gedung RSBI, tp btpa kecewa'a agku mgtahui penyembelihan udah cLecai T.T, lalu qu putzkn mampir ke t4 ke-2....... Syukurlah, penyembelihan be;um spenuhna seLesai dan qu mci c4 memotret2 dan merekam penyembelihan sapi, kerbau dan kambing.......... Wahhh, seru euyy!! Semuana atda dztu!! Ud gt pada awalna yg cewe cmn qu doang lg!! Wkwkwkwkwk,, bangganya!!!!!
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stLh penyembelihan kambing t;akHr, qu pun puLg........... seNang rzana meleat sNdr penyembelihan hewan qurban d cqulaahh, dlm hatdi ku camkan makna hari raya idul adha yakni bentuk kepedulian pelakasana penyembelihan hewan kurban serta pemotongan hawa nafsu, serakah dan kedengkian.............. eaahh, cmoga qta terus terpacu tuk mjd lebih baek dan baek d kemudian hari........... amieeeeennnnnnnnn^^

kta9ihN onLine^^

Waduhh, gga krza stLh TO 1 clcai qu mLy nglkuin kbysaan qu, yakni onLine dmN pun saat qu boring.... Eaa, bz lwt HP, comp jg bz tuhh, ky ckRg niy.. Low lg onLine qu g pNh buka sitUs2 yg b'baU poRNo and aLL aboUt it. Plig2 q buka facebook, blog ama mLy twitteran jg *meski ne situs, susah, gmpgan facebook!*. Selain itdu kdg2 qu jg googling nyri informzi pntig ama donlot lagu2 n video asigk..... wahhh, pokokna msLh onLine ud jd hObi laa, wLwpun ortU ud mLy lebai cL niy.... Mrka parno ngLeat da cewe yg d cuLik dg prNtra facebook... Ok2, qu ngerti, tp q kn bz jaga diri, mom, dad! So, please dehhh!!
Bru2 niy qu jg mly ngegame onLine, tp bysana c qu donlot dlu br q mainin d comp or laptop.... Ea kdg2 jg lsug d websitena jg tci.. such as mafia wars, etc. Main game onLine emng asigk n b'podtenszi bikin ktagihan, tp kn ttp ajj rugi, mndig wt hal2 positif ajjah... such as nambah tmnd d facebook, twitter or friendster, teyuss cri materi pLjrn d google, wikipedia or d situs2 pendidikan laenna, yg trakhr jg wt hbUrn sg donlot lagu2 barU........ xixixixi, it lah sekian dr unek2qu ttg onLine... X an boleh ttp onLine d mNpun dan kpnpun, tp ttp hruz tau wkt dan t4 dUnd.... Ucheyyy, it's fun to be teen and begin to browsing internet!! hahahagz,,

TO utda d dpn maTda ni cuyy!!

Waghhh!!! g nyangka cuyy, try out UNAS I adta d depan matda gue ckRg... *lg musimna gue-elu nihh,, xixixi,, peace* brUzn bezt TO B.Ind ama Math.. Gilaa, soalna lumayaiian b'potdenszi bikin gue putchinkg cuyyy,,,, hummmm, palge wkt TO Math... Qu must ekstra b'pikir cermat, teliti dan gag boleh salah... coz stLh qu itug2 tiap number niLaina 2,5.... Salah dua adjah udta kehiLgn 5 poin cuyy,, humm, gag boleh kjdyn tuhh, moga hziLna maksimaL n memUaskn dahhh, amienN... Oia low TO B.Ind jg gag beda jaUh tuhh, coz soalna tuw kdg2 nipu pembaca gitdu dehh, palge soalna kdg2 di ulng2,, ea, syukur low betdul, lha low saLah kant bz keilgn poin b'Lipt2 tuhhh, hadoghhhh, jgn smp kjdyN dehhhhh, atutd nihh agku....... hummmmM bzog giLiran'a TO B.Ing ama IPA,, Bwt B.Ing c agko aman2 ajj,,, tappe bwt IPA, mw gag mw must siaga juja dUnd..... mtRina kant byk tuhhh, kdg2 rumUs2na jg rumiTd.... ky'e bwt abror ama cita aja dehh yg keciL..... bwt gue mci hrUz siap siaga dan b'sedia *ckakak, ceile..* hehehehe, eautda qu bLjr dulu eaaaaa, bLjr kn g must buka bUku, bz lewat browsing internet juja,,,,,,,, xixixixixxi, doain ea cuyy, mugA ntr TO-na suksesz and b'imbasz juja dgn sukseszna UNAS.... amiiiiin y ALLOH!! Al-Fatihah!!